Searching

"The creation of self, it seems, even at this late stage of the game, 

is more a process than a project, 

more about opening and allowing than forcing and doing. 

Perhaps it does not have to be such hard work after all."

by Katrina Kenison, The Gift of an Ordinary Day.

http://www.katrinakenison.com/books/#ordinary-day

This activity, this surfing, it's gotten under Tim's skin. It is his current obsession - to the point that he has spent time shopping for a commuter car with respectable gas mileage to ease the guilt pangs - since the wave simulator lives 114 miles from our front door. There have been meetings, work trips and errands scheduled near this venue...any reason to get there...days off, unannounced escapes and family time too. Home away from home.

Turning 48, work demands, health challenges, a sore shoulder, torn muscles, fatigue. Contemplating worth, life's meaning, which of life's demands remain worthy of energy and attention? ... All things that feel heavy, for now, are immediately forgotten in the balm of cold water spray, competition and mental challenge. Physical exertion, learning new tricks and dreams of youth = Tim's elixir.

" ... perhaps (we) don't have to push at life quite so hard after all, 

that sometimes the best thing we can do 

is allow our lives to simply take us where we need to go."

~Katrina Kenison